A Temporary Interruption
I saw Tyler over Christmas (he lives in another state) and I knew I would cry when I did. Not only because I miss my kid, but because Tyler started the estrogen treatments last summer and I knew there might be some physical changes, as well as his wardrobe.
I'm not going to lie - I did ask him to warn me if he was going to present fully as a woman so I could prepare myself. He agreed and arrived in a tone-down version of Katie. It was so good to see him, but so extremely painful. I noticed some physical changes, as well as the way he was dressed (which was more feminine). The only thing worse than trying to hold in a cry, is trying to do it in a house full of people. I was at my dad's house, with my sister, niece, nephew, etc. We were just sitting down to eat, and I had to excuse myself to the bathroom to get myself together. Once the shock wore off, the rest of the day was great. If you look past the physical, he was the same kid we know and love.
Just the same, I've considered asking him to send me the occasional photo of him in full "Katie" mode so I can get used to it. He'll think I'm crazy, but what else is knew? :)
Author's note: Please know that I mean no offense to anyone by continuing to use the masculine pronouns when describing Tyler. To be honest, I'm just not ready yet, and I've discussed all this with Tyler. We've agreed that it's all part of the journey.
I'm not going to lie - I did ask him to warn me if he was going to present fully as a woman so I could prepare myself. He agreed and arrived in a tone-down version of Katie. It was so good to see him, but so extremely painful. I noticed some physical changes, as well as the way he was dressed (which was more feminine). The only thing worse than trying to hold in a cry, is trying to do it in a house full of people. I was at my dad's house, with my sister, niece, nephew, etc. We were just sitting down to eat, and I had to excuse myself to the bathroom to get myself together. Once the shock wore off, the rest of the day was great. If you look past the physical, he was the same kid we know and love.
Just the same, I've considered asking him to send me the occasional photo of him in full "Katie" mode so I can get used to it. He'll think I'm crazy, but what else is knew? :)
Author's note: Please know that I mean no offense to anyone by continuing to use the masculine pronouns when describing Tyler. To be honest, I'm just not ready yet, and I've discussed all this with Tyler. We've agreed that it's all part of the journey.
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